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From: CHARLTON KNOWLES
Date: 05 Oct 2007
Time: 16:41:30 -0500
Remote Name: 24.244.187.34
CURRENTLY,I AM INVOLVED IN A SITUATION AT WORK, WERE MY INTREGITY, SELF WORTH AND COMPENTENTCY WAS/IS BEING QUESTIONED BY MY BUSINESS PARTNERS AND THE BOARD OF DIRECTORS.I HAVE SUPPLIED DOCUMENTATION THAT VINDICATED ME OF ANY AND ALL POSSIBLE WRONG DOING. THIS SITUATION GAVE ME AN OPPORTUNITY TO LOOK DEEPLY INTO MYSELF AND TO ASK MYSELF "WHAT AM I WORTH TO MYSELF?" INITIALLY AS PROBABLY MOST STUTTERS DO (AND PERHAPS OTHERS TOO) TOOK THE DEFENSIVE STANCE, WHEN ALL THE FACTS IN FRONT OF ME SUGGESTED THIS POSITION WAS FALSE. I HAVE SINCE TOOK THE OFFENSIVE STANCE AND EMPHATICALLY TOLD MY PARTNERS AND THE DIRECTORS, PERHAPS IT IS TIME FOR ME TO GO, TO RESIGN AS MANAGING DIRECTOR/COMPANY GENERAL MANAGER. THEY ALL WENT NUMB. FOR YEARS I DEFENDED MY DECISIONS, BUT NOW I SAID NO MORE, IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT, ASK FOR MY RESIGNATION.ALL DURING THE PAST MONTH MY SPEECH INCLUDING THE STUTTERED SPEECH HAS BEEN SO RELAXED. MY ATTITUDE WAS/IS I DON'T CARE. I AM QUITE ABLE TO SURVIVE. THE LEVEL OF ANXIETY HAS DECREASED PROFOUNDLY, FOR THE SIMPLE REASON THAT I CAN DO OTHER JOBS AND SURVIVE. WHAT A LIBERATING FEELING TO JUST "LET GO." IF STUTTERING IS A "ROLE" DISORDER AS SHEEHAN STATES, THEN THE GAINS MAY BE REAL. I AM NOT TRYING TO NOT STUTTER OR BE FLUENT, I JUST TALK. DEAR PROFESSORS, WHAT'S YOUR TAKE ON ON THIS? WILL THE BUBBLE BURST?