The "R" Avoider

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Re: Question

From: Ari(Israel)
Date: 17 Oct 2010
Time: 11:05:35 -0500
Remote Name: 89.139.218.148

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I knew that i cant talk normal,i knew that i switch words,i knew that i avoid from almost all situations in my life . But when i talked i didn't notice how much i switch words,how much i use fillers. The fact that i could talk was such achievement ,that the automatic switching mechanism didn't bother me. Only when i couldn't switch words or when i was in very bad time,i noticed it because it was more difficult than usual. (Today i try to switch the easy words toward the hardest ones,cause i cant trust myself that this was really what i wanted to say. This is the result of 30 years of switching words.) The turn point for me was,that i couldn't live with the fear from the words that i knew i switch,the most frighten once. So i tried to say exactly what i wanted to say(and i wont say about the gates of hell that was opened), and then i discovered how much words i switch,and how much my normal speech is not so normal indeed. (I also discovered the huge fear i had to talk,and i have till a lot to work with,but this is not the subject here.) Thanks for the interest of my story! geashono@gmail.com Ari


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