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From: Zahabia Ali
Date: 10 Oct 2011
Time: 19:21:56 -0500
Remote Name: 69.142.169.193
I just had it today, wanted to end my life because of my stuttering. Didn't want to be embarrassed anymore about my speech problem. I am 23 years old & i am a person who stutters. Stuttering has changed my life drastically, I used to be one of the girls that wanted to try different things out, participate in acting class, sing, talk, make friends when i was young. Everything changed now that i am a grown up, who stutters. I do consider myself somewhat pretty but my confidence level is all the way at the bottom of the scale. I am afraid to talk in class, ask questions, participate in debates or even giving presentations. I try to avoid communicating as much as possible, however i feel much more safe in communicating indirectly like through emailing or texting. Mainly because i say what i want to, without any interruptions or everybody's eye staring at me while i am trying to a say a word that i am stuck on. I feel like giving up in life, i don't even what to learn anything new because i feel like what's the point, i won't be able to tell others what i know. There's so much pain inside of me - crying doesn't always help. I wish there is a way that the stuttering will go away, but i know that's not possible. I feel hopeless =(