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From: Ari(Israel) geashono@gmail.com
Date: 07 Oct 2011
Time: 04:39:29 -0500
Remote Name: 46.116.227.203
Kevin,i feel that i need to add some background of my experience. When i was 30 years old,i knew that i cant live my life trying to ignore my "black hole" -my stuttering. The problem was that in Israel,the most SLP's work only about acceptance,and that stuttering is OK. But i almost never stuttered ,and when i didn't have a choice but to stutter,i had silent blocks that i tried to break with a lot of struggle,and i couldn't accept talking with such effort . So i tried again Fluency Shaping,and indeed it was better, they took me to stores and with them i could ask questions very slowly, very controlled, very fluently,and i thought that i could deal with my "black hole". After it i wanted to go to the next level,to succeed talking to people by myself,and i thought that if i will do it day by day ,someday i will feel better without such fear. And some days i felt that i don't have such a fear and it was easier (of-course i used a lot of tricks),but someday it was very frighten like in the past. When i was in the street half an hour afraid to even try asking someone,and feeling panic ,i felt that i am starting again from zero,i didn't achieve anything, I steal talking very good in my "safe zones" and feel panic in most situations. When i told this story to an slp in FS reunion, she told me to consider taking drugs to deal my anxiety,but i couldnt agree cause my anxity didnt start by itself it came from my stuttering,so i knew that the answer is where the problam began. So again answering to your qustion:for me it was natural,ovious that in the real world i cant talk at all,the real problem was that i thught that i couldnt do anything with my life if i couldnt talk with new people,and i didnt know how to change it? Thanks Ari!