When Self therapy is the last option

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Re: Motivation

From: Richard in Neashville
Date: 04 Oct 2012
Time: 17:51:30 -0500
Remote Name: 68.52.199.15

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Hi Judy, To be honest, I was trapped in my second job as a Councillor and my Party had just taken control. that meant I could now take decisions, but by having some so called power I also had to answer questions. Up until then I only had to ask questions. I also knew if I wanted it, I was next in line to be Deputy Mayor and so Mayor the year after. The fear of all the speeches involved in those two posts probably was the tipping point. I had never felt so depressed about my speech until that moment I knew I could well be the Mayor of Dudley, Mayors do not Stutter! I can't believe I have no fear of showing my stutter openly now. Most times people don't even know I stutter, until I need to show them just in case a block appears from nowhere. It's not only through fear I can stutter, it can be when I'm relaxed at home. That's why I needed to change the way I thought of my stutter before changing the stutter. Most people can talk off and on for 15 hours a day and most of it nonsense anyway, I needed to do the same but with fear to lesson the fear.I had many, many setbacks but I don't think I had any real choice. Changing the way I thought deep down (my whole talking life's worth) about my speech was what I learned from Charles Van Riper. Trying not to stutter but dreading the suppressed stutter blocks is what I have done and have been taught since the age of 12. It is so hard to explain what a lie I lived. I like many stutterers would act brave, yet having to make a simple phone call would fill me with complete and utter dread and it was that feeling I could no longer live with. When a man can face his fear, face on and get floored time and time again, hour after hour and still come through it with his head held high he can live at peace with himself. I have made peace with the telephone and we now respect each other, I think?


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