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From: Tanya
Date: 22 Apr 2010
Time: 06:15:17 -0500
Remote Name: 76.106.165.197
Thank you Jessica for am excellent question. I was thinking about this issues myself for quite a while :-) It depends. The level of my self-monitoring is predominantly automatic and internally driven - I am watching my sentences while I am talking/writing and edit as I go. Mistakes in pronunciation are easier to deal with, even blocks are, with the help of pauses. The most difficult part for me internally is the control of mazing whether it is the story I am telling or the answer I am giving (which, I can NEVER give simple yes/no.) Quite often I am just screaming inside because I am stuck: I have said something -(a) word(s) which does/do not exactly belong to the story and , as a result, have to either 1) remind myself what WAS the point of my story; or 2)invent the other part which would logically belong there. Quite often #2 choice is the one which couses puzzled faces. In writing, it is approximately the same. Externally, my self-monitoring skills may depend on the audience responses. Occasionally, there are days when I have the discrepancy in the intentions and performance: I am excited, my speech seems to flow without major mental blocks, and, all of a sudden for me, I am informed that 1) I do not make sense (to be noted, my bilingual daughter says that if I do not make sense, it happens in any language I use) or 2) my audience makes comments about my "accent", and I have a choice of acting upon or reacting: stop and self-correct and go on or let the emotions take over (withdraw, cry). etc). I hope it is an asnwer you were looking for. Warm regards, TatyanaExum