Breaking the Cocoon

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Re: A sort of understanding

From: Marija
Date: 10/20/03
Time: 1:50:30 PM
Remote Name: 195.29.101.81

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Dear Naomi, the answer of course isn't black and white. My town is not so big, and I often meet people I know. About 60 of them went to the same class with me, they saw me crying and struggling in there; other people, everyone who knew me knew I was silent, shy, introvert and frightened. You can't just FLIP your known character and change. I really thought I'd always be that way. My going to another environment where no one knew me gave me the chance to let loose, breathe in and get another kind of a feedback, completely different from the one at home. Maybe if I'd gone to Italy, it would've been the same, I will never know. The CHANGE was crucial. I wouldn't undermind the influence of the opposite sex who I thought would never find me attractive but as I said, many good things happen when you lift your head from your own mud and look around. Then it's how good I felt about myself on that 12-day therapy I've talked about, it boosted my self-esteem because I was thought of as special and radiant. Then I got a huge boost from my work - everybody knows how competence and finding solutions can heal a damaged ego.

So it was a mixture of many factors, beggining with the warm and loving environment I had experienced in the U.S. - definitely.


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