|About the presenter: Joseph Dewey is a business analyst. He graduated in Statistics, and has worked for years implementing software packages and championing process improvement in manufacturing companies. Joseph was diagnosed with cluttering and has made remarkable personal progress in improving his speech. It's perhaps because of his analytical background that he's been able to map out in great detail what it is like to experience cluttering. He is the founder of the first online group for cluttering and is very passionate about learning more information about the relatively unknown field of cluttering.|
Cluttering is sometimes compared to stuttering, and extreme cases of both can sound very similar.
An example that Dr. St. Louis gives of both is:
I'm a pure clutterer. I have no stuttering component. I have no other related or unrelated disorders. Cluttering describes me in every way. My cluttering is inseparable from my personality. I feel that I'm still cluttering even when my speech is perfectly fluent. My speech is an outward reflection of the cluttering that rages in my head. I see cluttering as a personality set with a high likelihood of resulting in disrupted speech.
I started speaking at a normal age, but my speech has always been "different." My mom sought professional advice but didn't want to "make a big deal" about my speech, so she never brought it up. I'm glad she didn't, because I think early therapy would have made it worse for me. There was almost no information available on cluttering at that time, and I almost certainly would have been misdiagnosed and probably would have become very self conscious of my speech.
My parents separated when I was about 10, and I think that impacted me. I've heard that divorce can trigger speech problems, and I think that it probably accelerated mine. When I was younger I was very loud and extroverted. As I grew up, I withdrew because of my problems expressing myself through speech. I come across as an introvert in a lot of ways, but inside I still feel like an extrovert.
Like most clutterers, I didn't realize I had a problem with my speech, until it was pointed out to me. I was 26.
In college, the dean of my department pulled me into his office, and said, "Joseph, you're a really smart person, but I've noticed that you have a hard time expressing yourself. I've got a friend in the speech department, and if you're open to talking to him, I think this would pay off for you in your career."
At that point, it didn't occur to me that I might have a speech problem. I'd always wanted to be a good public speaker (probably as a subconscious need to deal with my speech problem), and so I went to the speech department, thinking I'd learn about how to be more confident in my speech.
After several days of testing, the speech-language pathologists said they were diagnosing me with cluttering. I was surprised because I had never heard of cluttering. She then played a sample of my speech they had recorded during the testing.
Now, most people don't like the sound of their voice, but imagine how horrified I was to not only hear my voice, but also to have it pointed out that I had an undeniable speech problem. I was shocked. I was shaken. I had never realized my speech was different and now I had proof, shoved in my face. I had a speech disorder.
I felt alone for much of my life. That all changed for me when I read Deso Weiss's book. I realized for the first time that there are other people out there just like me. This realization has helped me connect with people in ways that I had never thought possible.
After learning about cluttering, I spent about two years in speech therapy.
A student at Hunter College, CUNY interviewed me in 2003. The entire interview was posted with permission on the Stuttering Home Page and is also linked in the Cluttering Yahoo Group page of links. It is included here as part of this paper to provide the reader with additional information about my background and what cluttering is like for me.
As a child, his mother was very adamant about specific syntax. He gave an apologizing example, where she demanded that he repeat verbatim "I'm sorry that I didn't take out the trash and that I threw the cat out the window." Even if the apology consisted the overall gist, thus missing a few words (e.g. "I'm sorry that I didn't take out the trash and that I threw the cat out."), he was still required to repeat the sentence as she stated it. Such demands may have caused much stress and anxiety on J.D. being able to use proper planning for speech output that he reportedly was not able to go through the developmental process of learning to pre-plan speech/language. When asked what if feel like to clutter, his response went as follows: "It feels like 1) about twenty thoughts explode on my mind all at once, and I need to express them all, 2) that when I'm trying to make a point, that I just remembered something that I as supposed to say, so the person can understand, and I need to interrupt myself to say something that I should have said before, and 3) that I need to constantly revise the sentences that I'm working on, to get it out right."
He mentioned a speech he gave recently, where he froze for approximately thirty seconds and was not able to say a word. As he mapped out his thought process later, he counted sixteen separate thoughts he was trying to keep in mind, though he normally tries to hold five to eight thoughts at once while speaking. He believes that such 'banks' could be a part of cluttering. He hypothesizes that fluent speakers hold only about two to three thoughts in their minds, before they simply "shut down, and do something about it." Although with J.D., there is no limit of thoughts, nothing is done about it, and therefore, he either freezes or begins to express all the thoughts at once. Therefore, one of his self-remediation techniques is to simply focus on one central theme as he speaks. He used to avoid speaking with people who are 'power figures' or had status, talking on the phone, and also avoided speaking with people who would have difficulties understanding his speech, such as those who are hard of hearing, or those who do not understand English well (i.e. native speakers of another language). He prefers e-mail as the main mode of communicating/exchanging ideas, since he is able to revise easily. He stated that he probably would not be as functional without e-mail/computer access.
The interview process consisted of questions sent to him via email. J.D. acknowledged an interesting aspect of his cluttering and organization process. He mentioned how the majority of people would have most likely read and answered the questions one at a time, perhaps starting from easiest to most difficult, then proofreading and turning in the answers. However, he felt as if he was answering the questions by jumping from one to another, rewording and revising, changing answers, etc., simultaneously. In addition, although clutterers don't exhibit escape or avoidance behaviors as stutterers do, he stated how at times when he becomes overwhelmed with the myriad of thoughts in his head, the conversational partner will usually notice his frustration, and move on to another topic. Such acts by other people, although perhaps done with good intentions, are not to his liking.
Since reading disabilities are corresponding symptoms of a clutterer, J.D. graduated from college by basically skimming textbooks, not exactly reading them and imbibing all the necessary information. He has excelled vocationally, with database development, and has voiced how such a career would be ideal for clutterers, since they learn organizational skills at a high level.
He was asked how his relationships with other people have been affected by his cluttering. To which he replied: "I really have a hard time telling stories - I avoid telling stories, because I can't get them out right - I lack the organization to tell what happened yesterday, etc. My wife has a hard time with that because I never talk about how my day went at work - I don't remember a sequence of events of what happened at work - but I spend time mulling over certain events or conversations that I think are significant."
While conversing, he prefers to ask questions rather than answer them, since questions are easier for him to produce fluently. Because of his preference to ask rather than answer, he has come across to many as cold and `interviewing.' He has also been mocked about his "deer in the headlights" reaction when asked a question, and tends to avoid those individuals who are less than understanding about his reaction, and contribute unnecessary opinions about his speech.
Keeping all this in mind, J.D. did not realize he cluttered until the age of twenty-six, when a college teacher brought to his attention that he had a speech disorder. This also coincides with one of the obligatory symptoms of cluttering; the "lack of (complete) awareness of the problem" (Daly, 1985). He then received speech therapy for about a year, which he did not find to be helpful.
His suggestions to me for therapy/remediation ideas included the following: integrating elements and pointers used in public speaking training and thespian voice lessons, allowing the client to either talk freely or read aloud out of picture books, and learning how to become comfortable with talking to other individuals. He believes that reducing speaking rate should not be the focus of therapy. Although clutterers do exhibit tachylalia, it should be kept in mind that it is a symptom, and not the cause of cluttering. Focusing on delivery of speech (which includes prosody and suprasegmentals), rather than speech rate would aid the clutterer to obtain fluent speech production. Another technique he suggested included the videotaping of clutterer while speaking. This would allow the client to observe his/her own production of speech, as well as note on the appropriate/inappropriate characteristics of their speech. The client would then be videotaped once more trying new techniques for improvement. This allows the clutterer to become self-aware of his/her speech, try new approaches, and have the Speech-Language Pathologist as a guide. While conducting research for educational and personal purposes, I was quite surprised to find the lack of current research on this disorder. Even looking through databases, it was difficult to obtain a journal article published within the last five years containing helpful information on cluttering. Research must be imperative in order for future clinicians to be able to make educated and competent decisions about therapy techniques, should we encounter a client who clutters later on in our careers. This interview has allowed me to gain much more insight on the disorder than by simply reading the few pages in the textbook, as well as the required article about cluttering. The impact this disorder has on an individual's life varies, though I am grateful to have come across J.D., who has helped me become aware of the caliber of this disorder, and the overall lack of awareness most people have. Like stuttering, future research on cluttering should focus on possible etiologies and proven therapy techniques to allow the client to become a fluent speaker. The increase of awareness of cluttering should also be evident in schools, thus allowing the teachers to notice the characteristics easily, refer to an SLP, and have the child not fall through the cracks (since, reading and writing disabilities, and language difficulties are symptoms/characteristics of cluttering). J.D. has made some great strides to improve his speech and increase cluttering awareness. SLP's should equally aware that there are two forms of fluency disorders, and that cluttering, though not as prevalent, should not be ignored.
Daly, D.A. (1986). The clutterer. In K. O. St. Louis (Ed.), The atypical stutterer: Principles and practices of rehabilitation (pp. 155-192). Orlando, FL: Academic Press.
Weiss, D.A. (1964). Cluttering. Englewood Cliffs, NJ: Prentice-Hall.
Speech therapy taught me many techniques (some worked better than others) and gave me a solid foundation for improving my speech.
Therapies that didn't work for me
A few years ago, I made a renewed effort to fix my speech, and I've learned much more about improving cluttered speech. The knowledge I've gained has changed my life.
Now most people would describe my speech as normal, but I've still got a ways to go to achieve my goal of perfect fluency.
"Cluttering," St. Louis, K. O. (1996) http://www.stutteringhelp.org/Speech-Language%20Pathologists/Cluttering/82.aspx
Daly, D. A. (1996). The Source for Stuttering and Cluttering. East Moline, IL: LinguiSystems. http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/0760601089/
Myers, F. L. & St. Louis, K. O. (1992). Cluttering: A clinical perspective. Kibworth, Great Britain: Far Communications. (Reissued in 1996 by Singular Press, San Diego, California.) http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/1565935438/
Weiss, D. (1964). Cluttering. Englewood Cliffs NJ: Prentice-Hall. http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/B0006BMD0I/
|Return to the opening page of the conference|